am defiled
over and over again i have been used
so much that i now give myself away
parts of me have been taken away
i have willfully given away my virtue
i weep
not for the wrongs that people have done me
but because even in a mirror i couldnt see my scars
the song of my sins being sang in my ears cause me to cringe
i could not have done those things. i could not.
or could i.
theres proof. the scars on my soul tell the world who i am
i wash and wash and wash.... but the blood wont go
the more i wash the more i bleed.
help me find my way.
i want to start over.
If this is inspired by your personal experience, I pray you start over like you desire to.
ReplyDeleteIf this is ur experience, all i wana do is pull u up and give u a very tight-almost-choking-you hug. I hope you're ok tho. As in seriously ok.
ReplyDeleteAseni.I hope you are well? You've been rather quiet. Come back soon!
ReplyDelete*hugs my dear* starting over again is a good thing. I pray you do find your way with the Lord being your guide. best wishes.
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